
Wherever the stroke of midnight finds you,
I hope the New Year awaits you with newfound peace and love.
xox,
A.

Wherever the stroke of midnight finds you,
I hope the New Year awaits you with newfound peace and love.
xox,
A.

It’s no secret that I adore Johnny Hazzard. He’s just dreamy. Yes, I enjoy his body of work (tip: ‘The Wrong Side Of The Tracks’). The work of his body isn’t half bad either.
Beyond what you think you know about Mr. Hazzard, I suggest you think again. Awhile back, I posted a video of Johnny dancing to Sherrie Lea’s “Spellbound”. The man can move like nobody’s business. That clip–as well as a new dance routine to Black Fras’ “Moving Into Light”–can be purchased on his website. But, Mr. Hazzard’s talents know no limit.
You can now download Johnny Hazzard’s debut single “Deeper Into You” on iTunes. It’s a terrific deep bass dance track that’s just downright s-e-x-y. When he intones “you have no idea what you do to me….or what I’ll do to you”, I swear I get moist. (Oops, did I say that out loud?) The video clip (which had its World Premiere on GayPornBlog) for the song has just been released and is directed by none other than Ms. Chi Chi LaRue. In one word: HOT!.
On a not so lascivious note, I should add that Mr. Hazzard is a down-to-earth, genuinely funny guy. In an industry that is notorious for mighty egos, he’s a true breath of fresh air. I highly recommend his blog for a peek at the man behind the myth.



(Flashback Post: From May 22, 2006)


Ms. Jennifer Hudson, Ms. Anika Noni Rose, Ms. Beyoncé Knowles and Mr. Jamie Foxx
The principals of the ‘Dreamgirls’ cast pose for a portrait on the terrace of the Martinez Hotel during the 59th International Cannes Film Festival (May 19, 2006) in Cannes, France.

Ms. Hudson, Ms. Rose, Mr. Bill Condon (writer/director), Ms. Knowles

Mr. Jamie Foxx & Ms. Jennifer Hudson
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Ms. Jennifer Hudson.
Seven hundred eighty-three actresses auditioned for the part of Effie.
Jennifer Hudson became Effie White.
Four versions of “And I Am Telling You I’m Not Going” were recorded.
When Ms. Hudson performs the signature song in the film, time momentarily stills.
Flawless.
I’m talking Academy Award flawless.
Word.

May you be surrounded by friends, family and love.
Happy Hanukkah and Merry Christmas!

01. Further Proof Regarding The Decline Of Western Civilization #3,467: Miss USA is going to rehab. Forget wars. We can’t even have a “beauty queen” without an excuse. Further, to address rumors regarding Miss USA making out with Miss Teen USA, Donald Trump will send Tara Connor to Exodus International after rehab. Miss USA might be a drunk, but some god forbid she be a lesbian.
02. Quote Of The Day: “I’m not predicting any particular theater, but I am predicting that it’s going to take a while for the ideology of liberty to finally triumph over the ideology of hate.”–President George W. Bush
Note To President Dickhead: Liberty hasn’t trumped the ideology of hate within our own borders. Maybe we should start working on that at home before force-feeding it on the rest of the world. Just a thought.
03. Further Proof Regarding The Decline Of Western Civilization #3,468: It’s not enough that Britney Spears doesn’t wear underwear, can’t dress herself and has an affinity for kissing greasy-looking men in public–what is really depressing is that media and the Internet apparently care that she does it. I am SO OVER “I’m-not-that-innocent” Spears. Why the hell do you people care? A vagina is a vagina is a vagina.
04. Ewww, gross. Did I just really write that last sentence on my weblog?
05. Honestly, I’m really not cranky today.

(NOTICE: There are NO spoilers divulged in the following. Fear not ‘Dexter’ fans…)
Okay. I know that I’ve tended to go on and on (and on) of late about how brilliant of a series Showtime’s ‘Dexter’ is and what a transcendent performance Mr. Michael C. Hall brings to the lead character of Dexter Morgan. However, last night as I watched the the thrilling first season finale, the truth hit me like a spiral saw (with a dry diamond cut-off wheel) between the eyes: Michael C. Hall would be the perfect husband. No, wait. I mean he’d be my perfect husband.

Overlooking the obvious–that he’s not gay and he’s currently married (though, if I might be as crass as to mention, in the process of divorcing)–I’m nearly positive that I’m supposed to marry a man as talented, beautiful and deliciously diverting as Mr. Hall. I figure if he’s going to come available in the near future, I might as well put my…uhm…”feelers” out there.
From his stage turn as the emcee in ‘Cabaret’ to his provocative David Fisher on ‘Six Feet Under’, Mr. Hall has proven that can inhabit–and inhibit–a character with something that is quite rare these days: soul.
I suppose one should be rather frightened by the prospect that I find the portrayal of a serial killer as seductive and charming as I do. However, in Dexter Morgan, Michael C. Hall undergoes a transmogrification that is incredibly sublime and nearly impossible to achieve: He slips from the guise of a charming and witty blood spatter forensics analyst to an icy cold and calculating killer in the instantaneous blink of an eye. Moreover, he can pull off that switching of proverbial masks seamlessly–much of the time before you realize it has happened. You cannot but help to keep your eyes glued to every twitch of movement and flicker of emotion that graces Mr. Hall’s face and those intensely seering hazel irises. This role–and the series–would have been so easy to wreck in the hands of a lesser actor. But, Mr. Hall plays Dexter without any attempt to make apologies for his moral ambiguity. He is a gloriously complex and conflicted character that manages to willingly make the audience fall under his spell–no matter his crime(s).

Michael C. Hall’s performance was recently recognized by the Hollywood Foreign Press Association’s recent Golden Globe nominations. If the Emmy voters fail to award his work, I will seriously consider going serial on them.
Yes, I’m in love with a fictional character and an actor who wouldn’t know me from Adam…or Rudy. I’m not proud of the fact. But, if it will make you think better of me, did anyone notice what a beautiful ass this man is graced with on last night’s episode?
So, Michael…Dexter…Michael….Dexter….Mi….Give me a call. I’ll even spring for the Saran wrap and garbage bags. I’m safe, if nothing.

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Other Miscellaneous Proclamations:

01. You MUST purchase the Original Cast Recording of the new musical ‘Spring Awakening’. Based on the infamous 1891 play by Frank Wedekind (’Spring’s Awakening’), the book and lyrics for ‘Spring Awakening’ were written by Steven Sater and the music crafted by Duncan Sheik. The stand-out cast includes Jonathan Groff, John Gallagher, Jr., Lea Michele, Christine Estabrooke, Rob Devaney and Stephen Spinella. It’s bold, sexual, angsty and instantly memorable.
02. The person who I would have voted for was the victor in the 178th season of CBS’s ‘Survivor’. Outwit. Outlast. Outplay. Notice which comes first… (p.s. The runner-up did themself no favors in front of their jury of idiots peers.
03. I’m waiting for one package that should arrive today and I’m officially done with my Christmas shopping.
04. Celibacy does have its merits. Wantonness can be troubling.
“I was thinking, when I told Hella that I had loved her, of those days before anything awful, irrevocable, had happened to me, when an affair was nothing more than an affair. Now, from this night, this coming morning, no matter how many beds I find myself in between now and my final bed, I shall never be able to have any more of those boyish, zestful affairs–which are, really, when one thinks of it, a kind of higher, or, anyway, more pretentious masturbation. People are too various to be treated so lightly. I am too various to be trusted. If this were not so, I would not be alone in this house tonight. Hella would not be on the high seas. And Giovanni would not be about to perish, sometime between this night and this morning, on the guillotine.”
—Mr. James Baldwin, from ‘Giovanni’s Room’ (1956)

When I first read the brilliant narrative of James Baldwin’s second novel many years ago, I remember being filled with such a wide array of emotions. At that time in my life as a man struggling with his own sense of identity and sexuality, I think the book in some way mirrored the emotional havoc one weathers when confronting who you are and who you love. Needless to say, the words and images of ‘Giovanni’s Room’ stuck with me.
I recently picked up the book again and started reading it. It’s interesting to read and react to it in my present headspace. From a literary perspective, Baldwin’s use of a non-linear narrative still works to perfection. The way Baldwin threads words into seemingly unending tapestries is at first jarring–and then ideally suited to tumult of the story he is telling. It truly is a remarkable piece of literature–and one of the best in Baldwin’s canon–and if you’ve not had the pleasure, I highly recommend you seek it out.
I should add that even though ‘Giovanni’s Room’ (and later, 1962’s ‘Another Country’) were some of the first works of fiction in the United States to address same-gender desire, they are often foolishly labeled “homosexual novels”. As the main male characters in each book pursue sexual relationships with other men, it is presumed that any expression of same-gender desire automatically makes a person–and by extension a text–gay. Of course, this is patently short-sighted as the characters in either book are sexually involved with both men and women. In the same vein, to simply recast them as ”bisexual novels” would hardly be more appropriate. Whether you fault him for it or not, Baldwin sought to foster meanings that move beyond narrow identity categories. He believed that all people had to leave their lives open to both women and men in order to experience life (and subsequently not be trapped in one aspect of themselves).
What is fascinating in the tale of David, Hella and Giovanni’s relationship is the literal and figurative “coming out” of complex emotional needs. By extension, you can surmise Baldwin’s own struggles echo in his characters. To witness David’s own self-loathing and need to distance himself from a same-sex encounter in his teens and the similar pattern of homophobic rage that will ultimately befall his relationship with Giovanni is at once heartbreaking and spellbinding. The forgone conclusion that David will have to face truths he can no longer run from is an ache that the reader will carry throughout his story.
In the end, ‘Giovanni’s Room’ is more about how we treat one another as human beings, how fair (or unfair) the expectations and needs we place on one another are–and just how much we are willing to endure in insulating (and isolating) ourselves from the potential pain of a relationship of the heart can bring to pass.
I love this image of Matt Damon from the promotional materials for Robert De Niro’s upcoming film ‘The Good Shepherd’. Damon gives a terrifically nuanced (and hopefully Oscar nominated) performance as Edward Wilson.


01. Congratulations to the duo of Tyler Denk and James Branaman who captured the $1 million dollar prize in the latest installment of CBS’s ‘Amazing Race’. The models and former addicts bested the bickering tandem of Rob & Kimberly to the finish line at St. Basil’s Academy in Putnam, New York. While I was originally a big fan of Dave & Mary (who rumor has it will return in next season’s All-Stars edition), I was rooting for either Tyler & James or Karlyn & Lynn to win. Rob & Kimberly just gave me a headache. After last season’s rather unsatisfying family edition, it was nice to see TAR return to form under the reigns of the always yummy Phil Keoghan.

02. This weekend I watched writer/director Michael Haneke’s maddening ‘Caché’. The French film was lauded at Cannes in 2005 with the Best Director Prize, the Fipresci Prize and an Ecumenical Jury Prize. It has become a film critics either adore or abhor–and I can see why. This is the type of film that would never be made in the U.S.–nor would it be a box office success. It’s one of those films that refuses to answer all the questions it raises or have an ending that’s nicely wrapped up in a bow. That said, Haneke has created a claustrophobic and sneakily disturbing film that is high on tension and unease. Mysterious odd videotapes and drawings start showing up on the doorstep of a couple played perfectly by Daniel Auteuil (Georges) and Juliette Binoche (Anne). The paranoia-inducing tapes start to reveal secrets from Georges past and expose the cracks of a perfect-on-the-surface family. Whether you buy into the setup will depend on what you make of Haneke’s final shot in the film. To say it’s surprising and odd is an understatement. It will also more than likely require more than one look to see what you are supposed to see. If the film teaches us anything, it’s that there is always more than meets the eye.

03. One more episode to the season finale of Showtime’s terrific new series ‘Dexter’. If you haven’t watched, you’ve missed the best performance by an actor in a television drama–Mr. Michael C. Hall as the title character. Serial killing has never been so entertaining. Do you know where your dark passenger is?

04. Do you know what sounds are? OW! is certainly one. But there are others…like “Ew!”. This particular closeted Hollywood type has added a new trick to his bag. One hears he’s become fond of inserting a dipstick into his, uhm, dipstick. If you get my cross-your-legs drift.

One of the things I’m giving (myself included) this Christmas is Joe Oppedisano’s beautiful new book ‘Testosterone’. The photography itself is as varied and interesting as Oppedisano’s career.
Raised in a tight knit Roman Catholic Italian family, Oppedisano studied at the Fashion Institute of Technology while moonlighting as a stripper. He interned at Esquire magazine and later worked as an assistant to famed fashion director Robert Bryan. That experience landed him jobs as fashion editor for such prestigious publications as W, Vanity Fair, and L’Uomo Vogue. He was a fashion stylist for clients as varied as Ricky Martin, Regis Phillbin and Carole King. At thirty and without any formal training, Oppedisano picked up a camera and taught himself lighting and composition. His work can be seen in Maenner Aktuell, Pref, DNA, Instinct, The New York Times Magazine, Vibe and Playboy.

‘Testosterone’ is an interesting take on masculinity, fantasy and iconography. It features full color and black and white images of man in various forms and surroundings. There are several strands of commonality that thread the book’s unique sectioned ’storyline’. An obvious homage to the transcendent work of Tom of Finland starts the book with buff, burly leather men in various states of undress. Leather, tattoos, cigars, cops, bondage, jockstraps–the whole bear/daddy characterization is explored in gloriously lighted and shaded images. Restrooms, warehouses, and bars serve as a backdrop to an exploration of the aloofness and aggression of man. Particulary of note, is Oppedisano’s eye for the inkwork on his subjects.

The next section skews to younger men and features sporting themes. Water, dirt, and mud serve as props to striking images of men wrestling, sparring, swimming. Underwear and swimwear abound. Oppedisano makes some visual statements regarding the male bonding of men playing sports and the fine line between aggression and violence.

The central section of the book is the most appealing–and perhaps controversial. In a reimagining of scenes from Chuck Palahniuk’s (and David Fincher’s) ‘Fight Club’, Oppedisano reaches the crux of his study of men, testosterone, violence and sex. Beautiful men dressed to nines in Dolce & Gabbana suits carry out their fight club in an abandoned warehouse. The images are arresting, disturbing and undeniably erotic. Blood, tattoos, exposed genitals and torn garments are undercut by the fierce emotion and hostility captured by Oppedisano’s lens. In one of the most disturbing and brilliant shots in the book, a group of semi-dressed men surround a couple who are beating one another senseless on the floor. In this setting several of the men have exposed erections and are stroking themselves while being participating voyeurs. The statements made by a single image reverberate with a ringing intensity of how wrong–yet, absoulutely right the tableau is.
The last major section deals with younger men and more of a fashion aesthetic. Frequent muse, Joseph Sayers is featured in many of the artistic images. Scattered throughout the book’s images are interesting and topical quotes about men. The book also features an introduction by fellow photographer Reed Massengill, as well as an essay by Oppedisano. It is printed on heavyweight stock by the publishing house of Bruno Gmünder

Whether you simply admire the male form and Oppedisano’s work, or are fascinated by the symbolism and fetishism of the composition of the photographs, ‘Testosterone’ is a beautifully appointed and printed book that should be a part of your collection.
“The photos in this book come from a long line of inspirations and influences–aesthetic, sexual, human–but primary to their essence is the epiphany I had at the age of sixteen when I saw my first Tom of Finland drawing and realized I could never look at men the same way again. A little while later the same feelings were stirred when I got my hands on a copy of Colt magazine. The way the men were portrayed: larger than life, strong, masculine, and not just sexy, but sexual creatures. They were beasts, almost gods. And I was obsessed.“—Mr. Joe Oppedisano


Over the weekend, I watched Zak Tucker’s 2004 film ‘Poster Boy’. The film was given an original limited theatrical release and played at several film festivals, but finally sees the light of day two years later on DVD courtesy of here! films. ‘Poster Boy’ was originally slated to be a Herbert Ross project starring Billy Crudup, but was derailed after the director’s untimely death. The project was retooled into a more modest version and was slated to be lensed by Douglas Keeve. He left early in the project and it finally fell to Mr. Tucker to make his directorial debut.
‘Poster Boy’ is an intriguing film with a modest premise and some superbly layered characters. Most critics gave it scathing reviews. The film without doubt suffers from the ills of a low-budget project (it’s entirely shot on digital video) and a cumbersome framing of flash back sequences. But, if you give the film a break on its production values, I think you’ll find a film that has some very interesting things to say and a lot of significant questions to ask.
Overall, I really enjoyed the story–which could have easily veered into over-the-top melodrama. Instead, anchored performances from the three leads Matt Newton, Jack Noseworthy, and Valerie Geffner make this film much more than a topic du jour film and instead creates a complex web of relationships that is once touching and surprising. I found Valerie Geffner’s performance as the troubled, HIV-positive Izzie mesmerizing. Karen Allen’s performance, on the other hand, is much more difficult to digest.
While the larger plot deals with the struggles of a closeted gay (and possibly homophobic) son and his conservative father who is a U.S. senator in a bitter re-election fight, the movie makes some unexpected forays beyond the body politik and family dynamics. I won’t divulge any more of the plot except to say that part of the film involves a newspaper interview given by the senator’s son Henry Cray (Matt Newton). It is during a sequence of this one-on-one interview that the character of Henry gives an impassioned response to a reporter’s statement in the following exchange of dialogue:
Reporter: You can’t ignore the gay issue. Like it or not, you’re a part of something now….
Henry: What am I a part of Jack?
An issue? Don’t you get it?Issues are what they use to divide us.
Sexual orientation, race, gender–all issues that don’t actually pertain to anyone except those being cut out and thrown away by the issueDoes it really matter to some farmer in Kansas whether two men get married in Vermont?
But, see, they need us to choose sides. They create these issues for us to cling to, to grasp at. You know they separate us into these divisions: black, white, gay, straight, rich, poor, pagan, christian, liberal, conservative, democrat, republican.
Split. Different. Opposed.
How can a cause be just if it pits people against each other?
They made AIDS an issue. Homosexuality is immoral. Unnatural. Just fix them. Fix the deviants.
But what is more unnatural: sex with someone of the same gender or abandoning your own flesh and blood because of it?
I swear I rewatched this scene at least five times. Each time, it was like “wow, just wow”.
It’s that type of writing from Ryan Shiraki and Lecia Rosenthal that makes ‘Poster Boy’ worth the price of admission. Despite any flaws you may fault it with, it’s a film that stays with you long after the credits roll–or at least it did with me.

Not only do I love the World Wide Web because of the endless blogging and porn, but it actually has other merits as well. Imagine that?
Over the past couple of years, I’ve relied on on-line retailers to do more and more of my Christmas shopping. This year, I have done all of my shopping online, at my leisure and at odd hours. I’ve already got things wrapped, ribboned, tagged and under the tree–and there’s a steady stream of packages arriving.
I’m always pretty good at getting it all done early. This year looks to be no exception. Not having to deal with parking, crowds, lines and not finding what you want…well, that just makes me all Ho!Ho!Ho!-ey inside. Word.

The theme for World AIDS Day 2006 is Accountability. The overall theme of accountability is being reinforced with the slogan, “Stop AIDS: Keep The Promise”.
Accountability is all the more critical as governments should now be in the process of setting national targets as called for by the World AIDS Council in its June Political Declaration–and due at the end of 2006. These targets will define the global response to HIV and AIDS over the next several years. However, around the world there is little clarity about how this process is moving forwards.
The World AIDS Campaign and its partners call on all governmental leaders to be accountable for the promises they have made, to set the targets necessary to reach universal access to care, treatment and support, and to make all the necessary resources available in order to overcome the AIDS pandemic.
World AIDS Day was first declared by the World Health Organization and the United Nations General Assembly (Resolution 43/15) in 1988. Since then, it has progressively become one of the most successful “international days” for raising awareness on a global issue.
Thousands of events will be held around the world on and around December 1st, 2006. Some of the events are posted on the World AIDS Campaign website.
According to UNAIDS, an estimated 39.5 million adults and children are living with HIV. Approximately 4.3 million became newly infected with HIV in 2006 and 2.9 million died due to AIDS-related illnesses. Sub-Saharan Africa remains the epicenter of the AIDS pandemic, but no country is unaffected, and incidence rates are rising in a number of developed countries.
Although expanded access to treatment is estimated to have averted 250,000 to 350,000 deaths between 2003 and 2005, globally, antiretroviral drugs still reach only one in five who need them.
2006 is the 25th anniversary of the identification of AIDS–Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome–although evidence exists to suggest earlier cases. More than 25 million people have died of AIDS-related causes since 1981.
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The following is an excerpt of a conference call given by Dr. Paul Zeitz of the Global AIDS Alliance on November 28th, 2006:
“Just a few opening comments, as you may know, the UN released a report on the latest update about the AIDS epidemic, and the report showed that the virus is still far outpacing our efforts to control it. Nearly a half a million more people became newly infected in HIV during 2006 than in 2004 with a total of 39.5 million people now living with the virus. There is also – there was also really disappointing news that another three million people succumbed to the disease during 2006.
The report also showed that the epidemic has increased sharply in Eastern Europe and Central Asia with the number of newly infected people jumping by 70 percent this year alone. There’s also some concerns that the epidemic continues to grow in Southern Africa, Mozambique, South Africa, and Swaziland, specifically. There were some good news reports as well though that countries like Kenya and Malawi have shown a reduction in the number of new infections in young people, specifically, and the East African epidemic seems to be stabilizing.
So in the context of those findings, we’re having this call, and I’m going to just spend a couple of minutes now talking about U.S. policy. And as you know, President Bush launched an initiative three years ago, The President’s Emergency Plan for AIDS Relief, and we understand that they’re going to be providing a report later in the week giving an update about how many people they’ve gotten on life saving AIDS medicines, and so forth.
We know that the President’s plan has made a commitment for two million people on treatment by the end of 2008, but earlier this year, there was an international agreement signed onto by the President to achieve universal access to prevention, treatment and care by 2010, just four years from now. And unfortunately there is no real U.S. strategy to reach that target.
And so we’re hoping that as President Bush considers ways in terms of updating and upgrading the President’s Emergency Plan, that he’ll take heed of the lessons learned, and fix some of the policies that have been flawed, and move forward with a more robust U.S. support to the global response. We’re sure that the Democratic Congress that will be in power starting in January will be doing a lot of work to fix the obvious flaws to the program, and then we’re all committed to working towards ending the polarization that has been playing out in the AIDS arena, and move forward with a joint administration and Congressional initiative that can really go to the next level.
We hope that the U.S. will continue to increase its support to the global fund, which is shown to be quite effective in all these areas of AIDS treatment and orphans response. Violence is a key issue that needs further support, and we’ll hear more about that on the call. Universal education for girls is critical, and the U.S. has not stepped up to the plate on that. The orphan’s crisis remains completely unaddressed, and the biggest problem with the President’s initiative is the prevention policies which are unfortunately undermining some global efforts, and really need to be corrected in the coming months.“
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On a personal note, I would urge each and everyone of you that is sexually active–female, male, gay, straight, or other–to make yearly testing for the HIV virus a part of your annual health maintenance. Being proactive and practicing safer sex should be a part of your moral duty. But, it is only through proper medical testing and screening for HIV-anitbodies that you can ensure your sexual health and that of your partner(s).
I didn’t become sexually active until I was 18. Within that year, I had my first screening and it was a stressful experience. Not so much because I had exposed myself to risky sexual behavior, but the sheer fear and unease of going through the process a first time. Now, my doctor just adds the test to my annual blood panel screenings. Not only does it give me peace of mind, but it serves as a reminder the importance of practicing safer sex and knowing the history of any potential sexual partners. (Of course, as we are all painfully aware, my current on-going celibacy precludes my current practice of safe sex. {That’s not actually completely true, but I’ll spare you the uncomfortable details.} However, I’ve got condoms. Just in case. Wishful thinking. Uhm, nevermind.)
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On this day, I urge you to arm yourself with knowledge, get tested, and think of donating your time and/or money to organizations who work to prevent the spread of HIV/AIDS and offer critical support services to those living with the disease.
Keep your promise.
